Here Lies Our Holiday ♥

Calling out your name
Your face is everywhere
I'm reaching out to you
To find that you're not there
I wake up every night
To see the state I'm in
It's like an endless fight
I never seem to win 

I can't go on as long as I believe
Can't let go when I keep wondering

Where are you now, what have you found
Where is your heart, when I'm not around
Where are you now, you gotta let me know
Oh baby, so I can let you go

I can hear your voice
The ring of yesterday
It seems so close to me
But yet so far away
I should let it out
To save what's left of me
And close the doors of doubt
Revive my dignity

But, I can't go on as long as I believe
Can't let go when I keep wondering
I should let it out, it's time to let you go
Oh baby, I just want to know

Britney's song makes me feel something. Her old songs are the hits, really. It makes me think of things and it makes me tear.

Finally, I am at home. Have been going out recently, I am not going out anymore unless important.

WHY AM I SO FOOLISH? I h8 myself. FML.

Can you hear me calling out Your name?

You know I appreciate the finest things
But it's not what makes me happiest baby.

Its you <3

yay to thirtyone! finally ah, finally. But thanks baby, its the sweetest! :D i love you!

HELLO WORLD, I GOT INTO NGEEANN POLY! EARLY CHILDHOOD! YES IT HAS COME TO PASS! :D HAHAHA! Yay, i am a happy galzxzxzxzx.

Everything shall be summarized, k.

Yes, pam is leaving ): feb 18. saturday dinner w her joey sarah and lw! hope she's gonna like the notebookkkkkkkkk.

Happy birthday Van! :D I love you many! :D Even though I am not at the same rank as your bestfriend but I hope you can feel my love for you! :D yay see you on wednesday smiley girl!

KEONGHUIYI, please let me know when you need my help. I will stay at home to help you, if it means to not meet anyone! except for fri and sat! Anything I am here for you. Who is closer than a sister man! D:

K i think i can pig already, goodbye.

You are mesmerizing.

Babe, pick a night
To come out and play.
If it's alright,
What do you say?

Hehe, I'm really early today! Oh wells, I'm rather tired and still having a tummyache. CRAPPP AND I'VE WORK LATER TILL CLOSING! ): eeeyerrrrr i dont like. Where's izyan maria when i need her?!

Okay, I think I really need a goodnight sleep. My life now is like so cliche please. I'm doing the same thing like every day, every night. There's work tomorrow, on tuesday, thursday, sunday -.- and ive a card to do ): oh crappppppppp ttm.

YAY WEDNESDAY PLEASE COME NOW, ITS MY OFF DAY AND YAY POSTING RESULTS AND YAY CAUSE THURSDAY IS BOYS LIKE GIRLS! <3 WITH BABY AND WEIZHE!

Who would have ever knew 
That we would ever be more than friend;

REST! I can say I finally had some rest after so long :/ but back to the hectic schedule again starting from tomorrow. I'm working again! D: OHMANNNNNNNNNNN I DREAD IT! But its okay! :D money money money! i need money! :D arise and build is coming already! so yeah :D

YOSH PM TMR :D okay okay okay okay! idk luhhhhh i am quite -.- now, i also dont know why. Maybe cause i am too tired! :/

Oh yeah, joke of the day. I actually tore my sofa's skin -.- omgeeeeeeeeee. k never mind. joke thank you very much.

27th January release of results! Please pray for me! Thanks! I will get into NP Early Childhood x 1000.

It's 4:03 and I can't sleep
Without you next to me I
Toss and turn like the sea
If I drown tonight, bring me
Back to life
Breathe your breath in me
The only thing that I still believe
In is you, if you only knew

This is the perfect song now. Except is 345am in the morning.

I'm awake,  I can't sleep :/ insomnia I guess. I'll probably stay awake and do the card. Since majority of them already sent me their well wishes. Okay then, enough already. I'm going to start doing the card. Good morning world.

Goals for 2010! I need to plan SMARTER k thanks.

I've already submitted the 12 choices, gonna leave everything up to God.

Please have the sense of urgency, thank you very much.

Night Meditation;

John 13:34 " A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another."

Yes, I do;

Hmm, my dad just had his surgery today. He was complaining that this is the worst op he has ever went. Cause it hurt really badly. And to think my dad will think its painful, I am sure it is really painful. Oh wells, I pray that he will be healed soon. Speedy recovery! (Thumbs up) Eye dressing tomorrow at 8am! Gonna go with him.

Heh, I am back to watching vampire knight! Zero so cool ttm! :D

Yes yes yes yes! Boys like Girls is finally coming to singapore! ANYONE WANTS TO GO? ITS ON THE 28TH JAN! I REALLY WANNA GO BADLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

Night meditation;

2 Cor 6:18 " I will be a Father to you, and you will be my sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty."

HELLO 2010, GOODBYE 2009!

Welcoming the new year and biding farewell to the old. 2009 has been a year of many interesting things and its an eye opener. Got me exposed to a lot of new things that I have never tried, see or even experience before. Its definitely a year to remember. Its like recounting.. "Oh, when I am seventeen, I got my tattoo" kind of thing. There were, for sure, ups and downs, but I managed to survive and pull through, with the help of God of course! I am glad, that I came back to Him. NOTICE ALSO IN THE YEAR 2009! Without Him, I have no idea how to get out of whatever I was struggling with. Kudos to Him (: 2009 is great, but 2010 will be better! I am ready for something new to happen! Be it to me, to the people surrounding me, or just anything that will affect me! I can't wait to see the change! Already set my goals for the year 2010! Its gonna be an exciting year yet to come! :D

Hiatus for quite some time, this blog was dead! But now I am reviving it! :D Quite a lot of things have been going on. But its okay! I have been enduring for some! Like work? Yeah, the road was quite rough. Miscommunication, lack of teamwork, disunity and sowing discord? Lets be peacemakers and not troublemakers! So I am not going to say much and voice out my opinion, only if I have to.

O levelers are gonna get their results soon!! And, finally I can submit my choices! Although its still quite uncertain, but I thank God that I have the time to think through later before going out! Plenty of time left for me! :D Haha, I need Him to plan the road for me. I'll just be following the path He set. No more looking left and right, but looking straight at Him.

Its been a long long time since I saw my dearest bestfriend who thinks that I don't care about her at all ): We got to meet up before your school start please! ):

Oh yeah, my dad is going for a day surgery soon! Please pray for him! That the whatever layer of oil on his left eye will be cleared after the operation and he will be able to see properly. And also that the problem will not occur again. Cause doctor say, even if cut out already, the oil will still grow back without proper care. And he can't be exposed to sunlight. So I was thinking to get him a sunglass. I know he wants one from oakley but machiam expensive please! Later I shall go check it out!

Yes lots and lots of birthday coming up! Time to start cracking and down to business! Heading to town later to get stuff from artfriends (yay love that place much! <3) and watch sherlock holmes! HAHA, relaxation thank you very much! Huishan is really tired from work okay! :D YES YES AND TIME TO SAVE MONEY! CAUSE I AM GONNA SPEND QUITE A SUM THIS JAN! ): Oh wells!

To you;

7 is such a cool number <3

Afternoon Medication;

1 john 2:12 (NIV) " I write to you, dear children, because your sins have been forgiven on account of His name.

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking
Lookin down the road you should be taking
I should know, cos I loved and lost the day I let you go.

Wow, super o skoolllllll.

K just came back from work plus hougang. AND OHMANNNNNNNN I AM SUCH A MOUNTAIN TORTOISE PLEASE! I FEEL SO PAISEH! YL WAS LAUGHING AT ME FROM JUST NOWWWWWWWW :/ cause right, i went to buy the shihlin taiwan snacks thing. So i saw a queue and I just join. Then when its soon gonna be my turn, I realise the person in front of me, handed a receipt to the counter. Then I was thinking ey how come got receipt, here not order meh. Then i realise you have to order at another counter then go to that queue to collect -.- ohmannnnnnn then in the end i have to wait another 6 people -.- ohman so paiseh pls!

Yes anyway, I lent my cousin my guitar! I won't be able to practice for three days! But then its good, cause I won't have the time to practice! As I have many many artsy stuff to do! AND DID I MENTION!? MY GUITAR MACHIAM BECAME HEAVIER SIA, MY SHOULDERS WERE KILLING ME! I think maybe because my back hurts thats whyyyyy :/

OH YES! Today I went to work. I went into Queen's Ave and ask if thats the only piece they have left. And they say : we only bring in one piece per design. Ohman, I need to get it before it goes away to someone else ): cause i can't seem to find it at other burberry's store. I pray that the wallet will still be there when I get my pay next year ): yosh and talking about pay! I am getting it tomorrow! For the Ben 10 thing! 350 bucks! Its at some eunos technolink, idk where it is. Other than it being at eunos, duh right. K, never mind! I will figure my way there! 485-350=135 yosh yosh yosh!

K, HUISHAN IS BUSY NOW PLEASE DO NOT DISTURB HER. JUST TEXT HER AND SHE WILL REPLY WHEN HER BRAIN DECIDES TO TAKE A REST FROM CUTTING AND PASTING!

I think that girl looks quite pretty and she looks kinda like little J :D

Anyway, yes I am angry! As you can see from my title. I slept at 230 yesterday hoping that  I can pig all the way today then do the Thanksgiving Banner. BUT BUT BUT my manager called me at 758 asking me to work afternoon shift(130-1030) later. Cause she said the MIT cannot work, she's sick and all. Yes I understand the fact that when you are sick, you can't work. But what pisses me off is that, I didn't get that kind of privilege when I was in pain that day. And instead she said : bobian, you have to finish working. I am like thinking then why can't you get the MIT to work -.- Its supposed to be my rest day today! D:< And never mind, if I do closing today, I will reach home at around 1130 then tomorrow morning I have to do morning which is at 10am. I don't even have the time to get a good rest! Idk luhh, its not like as if my life is 24/7 around cotton on know, I have my own life to catch up on. I am not always on standby just in case someone cant work. I don't know! I am just gonna bring this point across to my manager later. This can't be the way to do things and besides I am just a part timer! PART not FULL! I AM SO PISSED K, I NEED MORE TIME OF MY OWN AND REST! And there's so many things that I need to do for this two weeks :/ and I don't have time to do it! D:< Oh gosh, please pray for me! I need to have more strength and pray that the time that I have on hand to do the cg deco can multiply and I'll be able to complete it before friday! "Through You I can do anything! I can do all things cause it's You who gives me strength! Nothing is impossible" I CONFESS.

Okay enough of the rants >:/ uhhhh yeah, I spent money again. But its for xmas present! Now I am onlyy left with my sister and joey! The cg will get brownie!! New friends too! HAHAHA, xmas xchange, I wonder who is getting for me! :D HAHAHA, oh wells :/ Idk ey, I am like in no mood for anything. I am so so tired plus my back is still killing me. I have no idea why. After a long period of standing up, it just kills >:/ so annoying.

How I wish I have no feelings, then I won't be able to feel anything. Not even my back, not even my heart.

It’s a roller coaster kinda rush.
And I never knew I could feel that much.